Light in the darkness-oct 08 blog reviewed

This is another significant blod to show my transition...

Hi again!
It's morning, and I have made some interesting progress through the dark stillness. (I call this "charlotte's portal" )

Just after midnight, and I woke up. I must have dozed off for a bit but awoke again shortly after and was unable to sleep, my head intensely bombarded with all the fiery darts of fear and financial anxiety. I could feel myself sinking deeper into the old, and all too familiar spiral, that literally drives the hair right out of my head! Like a floating orb that had crossd the 'event horizon' of a black hole,I was slipping away and I just didn't seem to be able to help myself.

EFT...the QUIET ACHIEVER

I sat up in bed, donned my iPod ear phones and listened to Napoleon Hill and a reading of Orison Swet Marden( both from Success magazine). Then I perfromed EFT on myself, but was so scattered in my thinking I could;t even coin a phrase! Focussing on the feeling is the issue anyway, and that' was NO trouble. I lay back down, feeling no different, but still couldn't sleep.

By this time it's 2 a.m., and I fall back on my faithful writing tool, which aids in the process of focussing my thoughts and intentions. I really AM a compulsive writer. I 'preach ' myelf happy.

Of course, I started out exploring the terrible way I was feeling-hopeless and so tired of being in this place again. I was infuriated with myself, coz I've known and expereinced so much, adn should be passed falling into this place. I could see the 'lack' i had let creep in and it was destroying all my joy.

WHAT I LOVE ABOUT EFT

I looked up and saw a shooting star. Of course, I was immediately transported to thinking about how much I love seeing shooting stars, and how good God is for giving me one right then.
From there, without any thought, I just started to list some of the many things i love: to ponder, to share, to do, be, have and give.

I wrote pages and I let them fill me afresh with the joy of living.
I love EFT and how it goes to work like an anonymous fairy godmother when you've forgotten you've asked for help.
I see EFT as the most humble of God's healing tools. The way it works, you could 'miss it' and never give credit where credit is due, unless you're truly paying attention.

TURNING POINT

That's where things started to change. By the light of a tea light lantern, out on the balcony in the deep purple breeze, I found a better place to view things, and a major burden of the past few weeks lifted.

I wrote for half an hour, and went back to bed...but still not to sleep.
Only now, I was receiving GOOD things. Answers, insights and plans.
I wanted to get up and get started on them!

TRULY AWAKE
I finally dozed off at about 4:30 a.m., but you can bet, I did it as one awakened, no longer in the dark of a dimmed consciousness. i had gotten past it, throught it, over it, round it...it was gone and I knew what to do.

For the same time that I felt this weight, I felt God inside saying "follow Your Bliss...All things are yours". Any time I asked a question, this was my answer.

In each situation, where I felt blocked or challenged or frustrated, I simply chose NOT to focus on those , or complain, but turned my attention to what I DO want. I recognised these as merely distractions and potential excuses, and I'm done with those.

BEING THANKFUL FOR THE LITTLE

Also, I'd read recently to be thankful for ALL money that comes in , whether 5c pieces, or whether you think it's enough. I kept finding 5c pieces after that!! I thought about how when somebody bugs you to call them, then, when you do, they do nothing but complain, and so, you don;t really wanna call them again in a hurry. That's how I saw 'money'. When it came, I would inwardly despair that it wasn't enough, and would list all the reasons why not...and money just got tired of my lack of expressed appreciation in respect ot that whining!! ( works for me!)

I thanked God for the gifts in all the situations that were there for me, and for the faithfulness and consistency of the laws of the Universe, such as LOA, and how perfectly my expectations were carried out and became my reality. I praised the reliability of these wonderful Truths, and rejoiced in them.

And I gave thanks for the truth of 'multiple realities', and that at any moment in time, I could switch from experiencing one reality to another reality of my choosing. I chose to see a different possibility in the Sea of Possibilities, and BE my desires fulfilled...and then, I started to SEE the things that were mine.

I realised that I DO have what i need right now. I DON'T have lack, but had let the belief I did blind me to what was already mine.

INSPIRED ACTION

"follow your bliss". Not sure how, but somehow, the notion of giving myself a birthday present sprung up. As I do have a little immediate cash, and no need to pay an immediate bill, (and I get paid after that) I decided to FREE myself of even thinking about how to get money ( coz that sends the message of not having it...and then, that's what you get) One of the ways, I can easily forget about money, is to lose myself in my art, writing, music an dloved ones....and Follow my Bliss.

So, as it's my birthday, next Friday...a week away, I gave myself the gift of this SEVEN DAYS UP TO MY BIRTHDAY to let go of money concerns and feel the pleasure of true wealth by doing what I love. I felt immediately liberated! KNowing that I've set a boundary like this totally frees me from giving thought to anxious thought weeds, and gives the Universe soemthing better to manifest.

Dollar Notes or Love Notes

This is a blog I wrote about 19months ago, and it shows how my attitude to money changed...

Yesterday was another good day.
As I mentioned, I began it with all of you, and how inspiring that was.

MUSINGS
I have a few different ponderings I'd like to share with you today.
1.Sowing-Growing-Knowing.
When i practice a difficult part of a song, i feel like i get nowhere initially.
I persevere, coz in spite of what seems obvious,I know I will improve.
But there's a kind of time lapse thing, where it feels like you get nowhere for the longest time, then, one day, after not practicing for a week, I go back to the piano, and hey presto! I can do it!
You put the time in, you water(sow), the sun rises and sets, rises and sets(grow), then you find you HAVE BECOME ( know-experientially)

It's the same with the things I speak over and to myself, and now, EFT on. I can feel myself being nurtured by the faith in what I'm saying, but one day...you wake up and you SEE differently, and you can link the changes to the profound truths of what you've been focussing your attention on.

This is what I'm experiencing now-with Money and with being in my own successful business.
After I left my
"P.S." BLOG yesterday, I read this little book by Morgana Rae, that I'd downloaded. I almost fell over! Everything I'd just come through, was what she listed to do , in order to draw abundance into your life.

PERSONIFICATION
Relationship is everything to me...that's why I like to 'hang out with God consciously'

I should have realised it years ago. I personify and ascribe personality traits to everything in my life, out of this love of relationship. It definitely helps to appreciate and love something when you give it a name. And I name everything. My car, Rita, got pampered yesterday. This laptop is called "Peeta Poota". My plants all have names, even my clothesline did, and my piano. I love relationship and develop them with everything!!

SO, I'm a bit surprised to see it took me this long to realise that I'd been treating Money like the Predator in my life. Money has been the scapegoat of all that I'd encountered in men, through abuse and neglect, so I hated the fact that I couldn't live without it/him.He felt like an abusive pimp that took whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted, and sent me to do what I never wanted to do, in return for a meagre, 'never enough', no promises fulfilled guarantee. I had seen that I'd connected Money, the lack of it, as well as the manipulative power of it, to early memories and incidents that left deep welts inside. and I had traced a pattern of working-but-not-getting what I earnt, from that time on ( at 5). I had chronic fears of displeasing Money, but never realised that I had made him this monster.

A NEW FRIEND
In learning to be grateful for every cent, I was inviting Money back into my life, but as my Friend. In 'choosing to feel good about supporting myself through my own multi million dollar business, and committing to it, a new Money Portrait was forming.
Money wouldn't talk to me before, other than echo what I believed about the Tyrant version of him. It reminds me of the "Parable of the Talents and Minas" in the Bible, where Jesus quotes the Owner who had left varying amounts with his workers to make what they will of it. When he returned from his journey,the first two had doubled their investments. The last one, afraid and judgmental, was too scared to do anything, and so buried his to keep it and return it.
The Owner, began with "So YOU KNEW that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? Well, then , you should have..."The worker received the worst of his fears, The Owner had not been this Ogre to the others.It was the beleif and expectation the worker held of the Owner that coloured his picture so black and bleak.

I can so see, that this is how I've seen Money-a cruel, unfair, pschyzophrenic tyrant, who could never be trusted, and would take and exploit, then abandon you, until he felt like using you again. ANd you had to have him, so you do nothing but surrender to his works, and despise yourself for it. These weren't just beliefs ABOUT money-this has been my RELATIONSHIP WITH Money, and that's why I could never get him to hang around very long and any assoication with him led to worse conditions. A chronic, life long resentment of everything bad that I saw in the world, was attributed to Money.

VOICE IN THE NIGHT

But the other night, when I couldn't sleep and in my despair, Money came and spoke to me. Not only that, but I'd noticed when I thought about my business, I felt stirrings of warmth and endearment-something was changing-or had.I felt love toward my business, and all it could be for me, and through me in the world. I started to see it as the sweetest life gift I'd ever received-the place to fulfill all the potential of who I am and want to materialise.
Business and Money were inextricably linked ( I know that seems like stating the obvious-but, think of them as people) and what I thought of one, was being projected against the other as well.

I was terrified to succeed with Business, coz how would I keep my distance from Money?
So, with the fluid rearranging of my perspectives, came a wave of wonder and love and appreciation,and I entered
into a new relationship with Money, and found him to be the tangible, hands-on face of Wisdom, who is my matriarchal mentor and all that I adore and aspire to be. Her hands have been tied to assist me in fulness, due to my hatred of Money, and I must say, I actually experienced true and impacting feelings of remorse for judging Money this way. I had done him an immeasurable disservice, and myself in the process!

This was a genuine repentance-a real turn around and a dramatic milestone.
And that's when i knew, Money and I were gonna be best friends from now on.

DOLLAR NOTES OR LOVE NOTES?

So last night, whenI went to work, i received a $10 tip. When the man left it on my piano, whispering 'thank you', i didn't see the monetary value of this note...i saw the gesture of love from Money. The man was the one who delivered it, and I'm grateful to him for his part, but it was a love note from Money. There was no thought of currency worth, but a wave of self worth in feeling truly adored and cared for.

How's that for a change????

It was Money that has been saying "Follow Your Bliss". To take time off worrying about Money, is to demonstrate the new found trust in Him, and to spend time doing what I love is to BE WEALTHY.

So, to wrap up for now...here's a thought about perspective. What you focus on, GROWS. It will, if you let it, eventually take over your entire range of sight-everything. In Australia, we have this thing about 'BIG FRUIT'. We've got the Big Banana, Big Pineapple, Big Avocado...we even have a BIG MERINO (sheep, pictured above)

You can make anything BIG, BIGGER than anything or anyone, simply by giving it ALL your attention. And only you can determine if this magnification will be good or bad.
Money loves to be where He is appreciated.
HAve a BEAUTIFUL and groovy day! :-)

DIY DeSigner Networking with Creative Thinking Technology (CTT)

DIY Designer Networking with Creative Thinking Technology (CTT)

Now...don’t get confused...I’m not talking about ‘network marketing’ in the old MLM (Multi Level Marketing) sense.

I AM talking more specifically about the kind of business (and life!) that gets done through the organic growth of regular relationships. What does this mean? Let me explain...

Where it began... once upon a time...ha! No...

Last year, in April, I decided that it was time I became familiar with other business people on the Gold Coast. I wanted to become visually known as that ‘creative person’-or something like that! J I had already recognised that simply by ‘turning up’ and being a familiar face at places, people would soon begin to feel that they know you. Any people, any places-it always works. This, in turn, leads to opportunities to get to know them, build a genuine relationship and sincerely connect.

I went to a luncheon at a fancy hotel, and it was a large group that sat tables of ten. It was supposed to be a Mastermind Group as well. This particular network, was quite expensive to join, and I wasn’t sure it was necessary. It wasn’t...but it did give me something to get the ‘networking’ ball rolling, at least, in my thinking!

And this is my first point: I’ve said it before too.

Start where you are!

Align yourself with what you want.

For me, that ALWAYS means ‘aligning myself, my focus, my energy...with what I want. How do I want my life to look and with what kinds of people do I wish to connect?

I like to use current examples of what’s happening in my life, so I will draw from my recent aligning with my desire to be living beachside and certain elements that I think would be part of that lifestyle-namely, daily exercise on the beach! Whilst doing that, I’ve also been designing how I want my work/life/relationships to be. You can find almost everything in my life, included in my collages and detailed descriptions of how I want my life to look...My Designer Calendar at work. (see Facebook Album of same name)

This part of creating is the perfect place to learn and master some Creative Thinking Technology processes. They are necessary all along, but they are invaluable here.

The Universe rearranges our realities, taking into account ALL that we are putting forth in our ‘energy DNA’. All our desires work together. So, even though the beach walk seems like a more personal thing, it is so much a part of how I want to live my life, that it opened opportunities and ideas and other behaviours with that ONE “inspired action”. It led to the daily videos.

CHOOSE ONE THING NOW THAT YOU KNOW YOU’VE GIVEN SO MUCH THOUGHT TO, BUT TAKEN NO ACTION UPON. One significant desire. Imagine yourself being/doing/having/ giving it. Describe all the detail that of how it looks, feels, tastes...and how ecstatically happy it makes you feel. Review the “DIY Designer Alignment Vol 1” http://youtube.com/lisashahescape

Do this and be attentive to what comes to you, who you meet, what you see, and any random ideas to explore the possibilities.

This is the beginning of ‘DIY Designer Networking’, because the Universe works with and through people. And it’s always to deliver to each one involved whatever it is they have been focussed upon. Sometimes, it’s the connections that come out of other connections that contribute to your fulfilment.

Life is about Turning Up!

One of the single most powerful forces I’ve witnessed is ‘Consistency’.

Both in the business networking circles that began to ‘find’ me and the myriad of subsequent secondary/tertiary connections, as well as on my beach walk, I noticed how people warmed to me, the more they saw more.

E.g. Each morning, as I walk, I see familiar faces. Initially, people simply passed by. As the recognition process went to work, there’d be “morning”s exchanged, or smiles and nods. As they days slipped by, warmer greetings from further away, and ‘see you tomorrow’ s. Quick conversations, names get exchanged and we start feeling like we’ve found a ‘friend’. Someone who obviously shares a common interest, because we see them every day, doing the same thing we’re doing. Then , we learn a little of each other’s lives. People like to be recognised, and feel known.

There’s a stability in consistency that breeds trust like nothing else I’ve seen. And I’m starting to see it everywhere. I’ve watched restaurants die and go bankrupt because proprietors didn’t grasp the necessity to deliver hours and service with reliable consistency. The kind of trust this breeds doesn’t break down easily. It builds organically. It may take a year to build an effective network of clients/customers this way, but they will be great friends.

When I meet people, I genuinely am not thinking about how to convert their ‘need’ into money for me. In fact, I like reminding people of all their personal power. I LOVE connecting with people. I’m fascinated by their stories, and I long to see them live their own version of their DIY Designer Lives.

SO, turn up for life! You don’t know who is watching and being drawn to you. You don’t know whose path is being divinely set to intersect with yours. Even if your “inspired action” doesn’t seem to reap immediate rewards, if it’s taking you into quality relationships, or improving others just because you feel better for it-it’s good.

I call this “Organic Networking”...and I aspire to be the “Queen of Organic Networking”

Networking-a Dirty Word?

Due to its association with MLM, networking did have a rather tainted reputation. Some, I know, still haven’t removed those connotations. Networking, like anything, is a neutral process. It’s what we do with it, how and why, that makes it beneficial or not. But in the Small Business world of today’s Gold Coast, it has begun to be appreciated for what it really can, and should be-about people.

The biggest distinguishing characteristic of “Organic Networking” is that it is ALL about the people, whereas many have felt the previous style of networking to be ALL about the money.

Today’s networker is much more socially inclined. We’re actually starting to really ENJOY our regular get togethers. So much so, that they are even contributing validly to our work/life balance in bringing up the social side. Last Sunday, one of the ‘heads’ of a local business network, who has become my friend, came to my gig. We’ve done some business together too, but it grew out of a very genuine friendship that we have begun to form. We really like each other!

Business is so much better when you share like values, have complimentary personalities, and you just plain LIKE EACH OTHER!

I believe that ‘organic networkers’ create a real affection and respect for one another. It’s never ‘just business’. It’s never just about the money. Clear boundaries regarding the handling and exchange of money are established from the start so that it never has to become an issue. There’s no expectation for ‘mates rates’, but always welcomed, if offered. The freedom to give, or not give them, is always there. And if they are given...they are just that-GIVEN...unconditional, no strings, no obligation to return the same.

The important thing is you know your networking friend is going to do their BEST for you, and their best is worth their fee. If it isn’t, you are friends and can give them feed back, but you never use their service out of obligation. That serves no one.

Competitors, Creators and Allies

As an Organic networker, I don’t believe in having ‘Competitors’. Yeah, yeah, I know this goes against everything they teach you in business, but maybe some things just should never have been taught. Are the other members of your family competitors with you for a place in the household? No! We are family. Everyone has THEIR OWN PLACE. Business is no different. Each has something unique to bring to the market place. AT least, it should be! If not in what they bring, then HOW they bring it. Different people will be drawn, or not, accordingly.

You determine your attraction factor. Not your so called ‘competition’. To compete is to imply lack and ‘not enough’, so that’s what you’ll get. Abundance is the order of our day. I am a Creator, not a Competitor. I carve out my own ‘organic niche’.

And I have dubbed those who would be considered ‘competitors’, as my “Allies”. They help me see what could be good for my business. They show some things I shouldn’t do. They give me ideas, and they encourage me to maintain a high standard for myself. We have a lot in common too. They are obviously friends/mentors to be doing all this! lol

Spoken like a TRUE organic networker! J

But seriously, when you change this mindset, you’ll not only NOT attract people that you need to be ‘afraid of’ in business, but you will cease to even see competition as a motivating factor in anyone. And when it doesn’t get your energy, it won’t be in your reality. I’ve had the most unexpected experiences along this line. But you’ll have to call in to my Blog talk Radio on Mar 9 to ask about that! No room here! Lol http://blogtalkradio.com/lisa-shah (QLD ) Tues 9 am GMT+10

Pie in the Sky-Rose Coloured Glasses

Oh, I know a lot of people would think me unrealistic, ‘head-in-the-sand’, wearing ‘rose coloured glasses’ and the like. People are often so afraid of being ‘screwed over’ by those they trust, that they keep trusting more people that will screw them over! They keep creating what they don’t want!

WE CREATE OUR REALITIES.

There are still lots of people that DO think it’s all about the money. Being adequately recompensed for your skills, talents, labour etc. is to be expected, but ultimately, it’s not the money we want. We want the freedom to live our Designer Dreams that we think having such money will bring. That’s why we end up with our focus aligned to all the wrong things. Our antenna is set 2 Degrees off our own Truth and on money instead. This brings conflict. This is why we need to start with aligning to our deepest desires and highest values.

I think our ‘natural’ sight is rosy. I believe we are authentically connectors and lovers. We had to ‘learn’ to focus on the negative. Fear fuels our resistance to those things feared, but ‘what we resists, persists’.

It’s time to don the ‘rose coloured’ glasses again.

Focus on the beauty. Focus on the best in people. Believe the love within. When you become convinced of it, the light of love in you will help them to see themselves by it. People will love being around you, coz it FEELS GOOD to be around you. You help them to remember who they are: Connected to Source and co-creators of their own DIY Designer Lives.

When your networking is love based, and not money chasing, all that you need to live the life of your dreams, will come to you.

Launching My Escape into Eternity

Hmmm...as far as the calendar is concerned, it is July 1st, 2009.
As far as I'm concerned, it is simply NOW.

For many, many years of my life I thought "Time" was my absolute greatest resource.

I never had a lot of money, and valued my time far more than any money. I thought the best way to capitalise on my time was to learn how to manage it, invest it, leverage it, even save it.

I loved the concept of Time Management, the principle of setting goals, and of having long terms plans, because all of these things gave me a sense of being in control over my life.

Of course, unless I built in a plan for generating income, many of my monetary based goals (if I bothered to set them at all), could never come to fruition. Plus, I had a lot of baggage that made it pretty near impossible for Money to get near me, let alone hang around! I resented Money. Resented having to have it and didn't like what I felt it brought out in people. I blamed Money for an awful lot of stuff.

That meant too, that I was ALWAYS looking for alternative ways to accomplish my desires. Creativity and innovation, and time to create became much more valued in my estimations. Thinking and creating became almost one and the same over time...ha!..time

A Quantum Shift

But something shifted in me a couple of years ago.

I'd boarded a plane for a four day trip away and forgotten my watch. I couldn't put my phone on as it wasn't in Flight mode.
I took this as a 'cue' from the Universe to 'forget time' until it was time to fly back.

And I did.
Not once did I ask what time it was. So many around were time oriented, I didn't even need to, in order to catch my plane back! Of course,there's a practicality to time, but I dare to venture, that most live in a feeling a 'lack of time'.
And I've started to hear the term 'time poor', more and more.

NOW or Never
Can I ever really be time poor, if I have NOW. Who has any more or less?

I started to see Time and my attitude toward it, could bear all the same marks as money. Time had gone further than being a commodity...it had become a form of currency-adjusting in value depending upon the economics of people outside of myself.

People could, and did, change where an hour was placed in a day. I never warmed to Daylight savings. I love LONG mornings. That's why I like Queensland. But it wasn't until I realised these things about time, that I realised I could live a life separate from the 'timing' of others.

I began to conceive the idea of living in NOW, and 'outside' of time-in ETERNITY.
"NOW, this is ETERNAL life"
All over the world, people are in various degrees of today, tomorrow and yesterday, but yet, it is undeniably ALL NOW. The only way to truly leverage and maximize time is to live FULLY, NOW.

Another Shift
A couple of years ago i heard a man by the name of Stephn Covey Sr say:
"You don't need money to make money, you need Creativity"
When he said that, my entire universe opened up! I had spent my life fostering and nurturing all manner of creativity and re-conceptualizing, since I was REALLY young.

My circumstances required being able to rearrange the way I saw things,so that I could find the good in life, and alternatives became my specialty. And I practiced the art perpetually.

This brought about a massice shift in my mindset toward generating Money, and the culminating piece of that puzzle was changing the way I saw Money. And that has revolutionalized everything.

With Creativity/Thinking as my recognized most valuable resource, I became the richest person that I knew, because these practices had become central to all that I see myself as.

A Thinker and a Creator

I Don't Age...I Evolve

Now, I have a totally 'smashed' view of Time and everything is in perfect timing.
All that is my life is about synchronicity and knowing that "All things are mine", because I have the resources to create anything I can conceive. The 'whens' and 'hows' don't matter any more, since as soon as I see myself as BEING/HAVING/DOING/GIVING in the NOW, then I have received it.

The process has been conceived and is in gestation, and will inevitably be birthed into the physical line of 'time'.

Now, my goals are simply desired outcomes. Thay are a collage, a patchwork, a multiplicity of layers of experience. And by the time a desired outcome has materialized, I'm already in the incubating state of another, and another, and another...ad infinitum. NOW, I am living in eternity.

Now I Am
...and it's ALL good! :-)